Therapy Thursday–stream of consciousness

well its appropriate that today is therapy thursday. im just going to type and spellcheck, not take anything out or worry about content. ive had a shitty day and i dont have time to worry about image or anything.

i’ve had this on again off again sometimes fwb sometimes dating sometimes not even speaking relationship for the past four years. normally i talk to him every day but i hadnt heard from him since sunday so i texted him to see if he was okay. out of left field he tells me he doesnt ever want kids, might not ever want a house, we want different things and are too different and we should move on.

what. in the actual. fuck.

but it gets better. at that point in the conversation i am so flabbergasted that all i can think of to say is ‘well that sucks’.

but wait. theres MORE.

kid decides to try and prolong this shit.

“can we take a month apart and try talking again, your [sic] the closest person i have. i want you in my life but not the same way you want.”

why in the SEVEN HELLS would i keep talking to you with that sort of mixed message shit going on? what the fuck is that? im the most important person to you but you don’t want to be with me? MAKES SENSE. two weeks ago we were having a COUPLES MASSAGE and all of a sudden we are too different? because of some hypothetical children that dont even exist yet? you are the one that calls me whenever you are in the car and wants to hang out all the time and text me pictures of your fancy food when you are out with your work friends and pay for my FFXIV subscription so that i will play with you.

this is some fucked up shit. and unfortunately im the kind of person that will curl up in a ball and cry and overanalyze every single thing i could have done differently to make him love me–rather than just accept that hes an asshole that wont ever commit to anyone, which he even says himself.

maybe i will use this as an opportunity to develop tutorials on getting rid of or hiding puffy red eyes. stay gorgeous.

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Back to Blogging and New Daily Themes!

A day home with the nastiest sinus infection on record is a perfect day to start forcing myself back into the Confessionals. The holidays were overwhelming for me, and I have only posted once in the last nearly two months! I have decided to organize things a little differently this year. I can’t promise a daily post–but I can promise that you will know what the post will be based on the day it comes out!

I am introducing daily themes for my posts. I have SO many pictures and things to show you that often I have sat down to write, only to take an hour DECIDING what to write about! Now, I know that if I sit down on a Monday, I have only to pick from my nail pictures. If its Wednesday, you will be seeing a palette review. Posts from today forward will be categorized as follows”

Mani-c Mondays: Everything nail art! Hand creams, cuticle oils, polish reviews, and (of course) manicures.

Tutorials on Tuesdays:  Exploring online tutorials, step by step guides from products, and my attempts to follow or create them!

Palette War Wednesdays: A continuation of the palette review series I began last year, testing the versatility and quality of different palettes and products.

Therapy Thursday: Shopping confessions, off topic venting, and hopefully thought and comment provoking discussions.

Free For All Fridays: Mish mosh of whatever leftover topics I have. These could be repeats of other days or fall under a category I haven’t yet imagined.

Sampling Saturdays: Product reviews of the myriad of samples in my collection.

Subscription Box Sunday: Pictures and reviews of monthly subscription services, beauty and otherwise.

SO as long as I can keep up with it, this is what you have to look forward to! Now, I’m going to continue blowing my nose and watching SVU reruns 🙂